Where I'm From

I'm from the right stock.
I'm from the wrong side of the tracks.
I'm from the old colonial that, named appropriately, invaded and pillaged me even after I left it.
I'm from public schools and public pools
Where little boys brag "I have a bigger head than you" before ducking into choppy, green water.

I'm from my mother; her heart is deep, absorbent purple,
Like new asphalt in the summer.

I'm from Hannaford's; I used to be from Stop n Shop, but when I left home,
I ripped out the power cord connecting myself to my childhood and started fresh.
Fresh, like the produce section.

I’m from the drunken nights that cannot be measured in vomit or so many texts, wryly tossed into the atmosphere of a Friday.
I’m from slowly regaining self control,
Shrouded in a misty cloud of dysphoria.
I’m from the mornings in which I throw the words
"Piece of shit" in my own face most.
I'm from the left lane, which is where I drive 95 mph with
The radio on full volume in an effort to blast her out of my brain.

I’m from a world that I left behind; one that
I was fucking good at.
I’m from the early mornings of buffering a laundry list of insecurities –
Anything but light reading.
I’m from a hero complex, I guess.

I’m from the appointment at a dentist who stuck the only needle
Full of enough novacane to rival the numb I’m feeling now.